Hello, and welcome to our spotlight for today, where we will learn more about poet Ayala Zarfjian, who blogs at a sun kissed life. Tell us a little about yourself, Ayala.
I am the mother of two sons. My husband and I are Jewelers, we design and craft unique pieces in precious metals and we connect with many people. My sons Josh and Daniel inspire me to live every day with wonder and they have taught me to see the world through their eyes. They are my greatest teachers. It may sound corny but it’s true. Josh is a twenty-eight year old Emergency Room physician. He is living in Boston with his future wife Irina. He worked the day of the Boston Marathon. That day changed him and all of us forever. My son Daniel is thirteen years old. He is a student with an old soul. He usually reads my poems before anyone else does. A perfect day for me is when all of us are together. I know that sounds mushy hence my nickname. My husband nicknamed me Mushy for that reason, and now everyone calls me by my nickname. J I love to read and write. I love art, and photography. I love to travel and I love to go fishing with my husband. He makes me laugh and he makes me insane.
What do you think makes you the poet you are today?
Poetry is life. I’ve been writing since I am eight years old. There were years that I stopped writing because I was in a dark place. The words kept knocking in my sleep, the words would wake me up but I refused to write them down. When I began to write again, I felt like I could breathe again. All my struggles and all my pain have made me the poet I am today. I would not change a thing.
This is a poem expresses some of my journey.
Words I Have Forgotten
by Ayala Zarfjian
I traced words on leaves,
with my fingers and my toes.
I scattered them in the orange grove,
and watched how they were swept into the heavens.
The fields nearby were Peridot green,
inviting and unassuming,
I knelt down,
wishing the scars would heal,
and I can find them once again.
The sun shined with regret,
attempting to console my emptiness.
The wounds of life led me to abandon
the words I love as I buried them deep inside.
Poetry, my old friend,
you found me while I played hide and seek
with my words.
While I wrote them on napkins and receipts
and tossed them away.
Poetry you found me in the ocean,
on a moonlit night,
the tide was rising,
the fish were biting.
You found me and I could no longer hide.
I had forgotten how you heal me,
how you awaken my desire,
how you let my soul dance outside my body.
Who in your family most influenced you or inspired you in your writing?
My father was a writer among other things. His life was well lived. He survived the holocaust and went on to lead a life that was rich. He had a love for life that he gave to us. He was a self-made man who was admired by many. My brothers and I adored him. He believed in my writing and he hoped that I would pursue it. I remember being a little girl and listening to my father read love poems to my mother. It was beautiful and inspiring to watch. My father passed away is 2008 and my mother passed in 2009. I began writing my blog in 2010 as a way to deal with my grief and despair. The blog evolved into a poetry blog because poetry is my true passion. I found that writing was a salvation to me. I met a wonderful community of writers, poets and other bloggers going through the same pain of loss and the joys of motherhood. I felt the support was incredible. Connecting with other writers that were just as passionate as I was definitely fueled my desire to continue writing. Our poetry community was always supportive especially Mr. Brian Miller. He is a light for all of us.
Where do you write- – at a table, a desk, while in bed, when traveling, outdoors, in a quiet place known only to you? Also, when did you feel you were truly a poet?
I would have to say all of the above. When I travel I find myself inspired by art, music, people, sights, smells, and food. When I am out on the ocean fishing, I can see wonderful things like dolphins and sea turtles and it all inspires me. I am passionate about life. Most of my best poems I stumble on while feeling the inspiration. I write the words down quickly before they are lost. Lately I sit in my dining room there is painting on the wall with an angelic woman and cherubs that was hanging in my parents’ home. I feel peaceful there. My life is very busy so I find myself juggling every day and writing whenever I can.
I felt I was a poet the first time my father (who was a poet) read a collection of my poems. He wanted me to publish them. His admiration and support meant the world to me.
What would you like to see your poetry evolve into? In what direction do you feel you would like to go?
In my twenties my father urged me to self publish a collection of poems. During the time that I was collaborating with the publisher, he fell ill and closed down. At that point I didn’t want to pursue the publishing any longer. I feel differently now. I would like to self publish a collection of poems by the end of the year. I am also working on a project about the holocaust. I would like to publish stories of my father and my aunt. I believe they are stories that we must tell and we must remember. I am also working on a memoir. The memoir is the hardest one because it leaves me the most vulnerable.
What is your greatest accomplishment, outside of writing?
My greatest accomplishments are my sons. I raised Josh as a single parent for the first nine years. It was a privilege. He was my world and I was his. One of the greatest compliments of my life was when Josh was interviewed for medical school. The interviewer asked him who his hero was. I innocently asked him what his answer was. He said that I was. I was touched deeply. My second marriage brought me Daniel. Raising Daniel with a partner that was present gave me a different perspective on parenting. I have given them both unconditional love and a love for life. I nourished them with books from the time they were in my womb. Both of them love books. I write poems for them all the time. I tell them that life is poetry and poetry is life.
What is your favorite word?
My favorite words are gratitude and love. I live with gratitude in my heart. My life had many rocky roads and many struggles but I grew with every mistake, with every wrong turn. The pain was a gift, the joy was a gift and it made me who I am. Love is everything and it’s what defines me.
Fearless
by Ayala Zarfjian
Our bodies
carry our biographies
she says.
Her voice gentle and soothing
as she instructs us into
a yoga pose.
The walls are green
a mix of
jade and avocado.
Our bodies remember
where we have been
and who we are.
They hold the scars and shame.
I breathe
and remember the collisions
of my soul.
Does my body remember
when I’ve been beaten,
even though my scars have faded.
Does it remember despair and hunger
in my darkest moments.
I was a fearless young girl
that followed her heart.
I have traveled the road
of humiliation and determination,
highs and lows.
My body remembers
the joy of the birth of my children,
holding them for the first time
as my soul lifted.
The sorrow of my parents dying,
the conflicts of religion
and spirituality .
The hopscotch between
two continents
that were once both home to me.
How I felt anxiety and loneliness
until I built a new world.
My soul rises,
it’s always known where I belong
and how I feel.
I always knew,
never needed to search
for my identity.
I am complicated,
a contradiction
a survivor.
I have always followed
my heart.
My words have guided me,
lifted me,
gave me a voice.
I wish to leave the words behind
not half-truths
but honest confessions.
I want to wear my shame
as well as I wear my triumphs.
My love will linger in my
boys hearts and
on my lovers lips.
My love is what defines me.
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Thank you Laurie and dVerse . Happy and humbled to be here and to share more of myself with
our poetry community which I admire so much.
Your welcome, Ayala! Now it’s everyone’s turn to ask questions in the comments.
Where to find Ayala: blog a sun kissed life, FB page & Twitter @ayalazarfjian
brian miller said:
smiling at your sons being your greatest accomplishment…and wow writing since you were 8…that is awesome….mine came much later in life…in part for you probably growing up in a writing house…love your fathers encouragment of you…you can def tell that family plays a big part in your writing….
sorry, laurie had this scheduled but it did not post for some reason…
ayala said:
I am happy that I found my words again. It helps me breathe and be who I am. Thanks Brian, you have always been there supporting this great community.
brian miller said:
aw shucks…hey it is people like you that make it great…smiles.
ayala said:
🙂 thanks, Brian 🙂
MarinaSofia said:
Lovely to get to know you better, Ayala – and what a beautiful and supportive family you have.
ayala said:
Thank you, Marina. 🙂 I am blessed.
http://vivinfrance.wordpress.com said:
So writing is in your genes, and maybe your sons too are writers in the making?
Thank you for this fascinating interview, Ayala and Laurie.
ayala said:
Thank you kindly. My son Daniel wrote a piece for school and it was chosen in first place…so maybe.
brian miller said:
that is very cool ayala…
Laurie Kolp said:
Your welcome.
Anthony Desmond said:
Ayala! I’m an avid visitor on her blog and so happy to see her spotlighted!
It’s really adorable how you say your kids are your greatest teachers. I’m not a parent, so I’d imagine you said that because raising them, ultimately teaches you more about yourself?
And I def agree with what you said about Brian; he surely is a light for us.
ayala said:
Thank you, Anthony. Nice to be asked to be here.
My children have taught me more about myself and what I am made of but mostly it’s a privilege to see the world through their eyes and have a new perspective on life.
And Brian 🙂 yes, I believe all of us are inspired by him and cherish his friendship.
Sherry Blue Sky said:
Ayala, what a delight it is to read your interview and your poems…….now I want to know more and will go read your blog. Thank you, Laurie, for spotlighting such a lovely Traveler.
ayala said:
Thank you, sherry. I appreciate your support.
Laurie Kolp said:
Gladly!
Steve Shultz said:
I am happy to have learned more about you, Ayala. I love following your work – you are an inspiring poet. Gratitude! 🙂
brian miller said:
hey steve,
its been a while…how are you?
ayala said:
Thank you, Steve. 🙂 I am thankful for your continued support.
ayala said:
The first poem was not sent complete…
here it is
I traced words on leaves,
with my fingers and my toes.
I scattered them in the orange grove,
and watched how they were swept into the heavens.
The fields nearby were Peridot green,
inviting and unassuming,
I knelt down,
wishing the scars would heal,
and I can find them once again.
The sun shined with regret,
attempting to console my emptiness.
The wounds of life led me to abandon
the words I love as I buried them deep inside.
Poetry, my old friend,
you found me while I played hide and seek
with my words.
While I wrote them on napkins and receipts
and tossed them away.
Poetry you found me in the ocean,
on a moonlit night,
the tide was rising,
the fish were biting.
You found me and I could no longer hide.
I had forgotten how you heal me,
how you awaken my desire,
how you let my soul dance outside my body.
brian miller said:
fixed it ayala….
ayala said:
Thank you, Brian!
Laurie Kolp said:
Sorry, Ayala and thanks, Brian.
Mary said:
Ayala, I always appreciate your poems about family and your devotion to your family. Truly, as you know, there is no greater joy. I feel the love for your family in what you write.
I like that you are passionate about life. I can definitely read that in your poems.
You mentioned that your dad survived the holocaust. Are you able to tell where he was at that time? Or is that something you want to reserve for your book? (And I do hope you will write it!)
I enjoy my visits to your blog!
ayala said:
Thank you, Mary. My family is everything to me.
My dad was born in Romania. I am still learning about the places that they fled to and the lager (ghetto) that was their home. My aunt told me that they had to walk and whoever stopped would get shot. My grandfather carried her when she could not walk anymore.
Mary said:
Heartbreaking, Ayala. What a frightening life. They were lucky to have survived, for sure.
Gabriella said:
Thank you Ayala for sharing a slice of your life with us. I can see you are very close to the men in your lives. It is nice that the support and encouragement you used to get from your father you know get from your sons.
I always enjoy your poems and your own support.
ayala said:
Thank you, Gabriella. I appreciate your continued support.
claudia said:
it’s great to get to know you a bit better ayala – and it’s wonderful that you have such a great relationship with your sons as well… love that your younger son reads all your poems. my daughters usually read mine more often when they’re away and a bit homesick…smiles
thanks for the wonderful interview laurie
ayala said:
Thank you, Claudia. I love that you write for your daughters as well…..the words comfort them now and later the words will remain with them forever. 🙂
Laurie Kolp said:
Your welcome, Claudia… just wish I hadn’t been traveling when it posted.
Other Mary said:
What a very well done article. It’s nice to know a bit more about Ayala – such an inspiring, positive member of dVerse. Thank you Laurie and Ayala!
ayala said:
Thank you, Mary. I appreciate your support.
bridge2vision said:
Loved learning about you, your writing, your family and what inspires you Ayala. So many threads of commonality with how our roles as mothers of wonderful kids grounds such inspiration that gets expressed in all kinds of wonderful ways. Then, there are the threads of difference – your family’s history and experience of the time of the holocaust has to inform you at a cellular level in different ways than I can know.
I love the varied tapestry you’ve shown me – and that we weave together somehow here at this place of word, verse, and diversity.
– Lori
ayala said:
Thank you, Lori. We are all different yet we are all connected. We weave and share and we find a common ground. 🙂
Victoria C. Slotto said:
Ayala, I’ve always enjoyed your poetry and welcomed your visits. Now, even more so. What a touching interview. Thank you so much for sharing with us and fort he beautiful poems. Truly a blessing to “know” you better–and, Laurie, thanks to you for the well thought out interview.
ayala said:
Thank you, Victoria. I’ve always enjoyed your thoughtful comments and your beautiful work.
Grace said:
How lovely to see Ayala featured here ~ I have been reading her work for some time now and marveled at her love for her family ~
I hope you get the book published soon ~ The holocaust project looks very interesting as I have read some snippets about your family background ~ All the best to you ~
Thanks Laurie for the interview ~
ayala said:
Thank you,Grace. I am looking forward to continuing these projects and publishing them. At the moment I am still struggling with time constraints holding me back.
Pamela said:
Very nice interview, Ayala and Laurie. I always love getting to know our poetry buddies more.
Pamela
ayala said:
Thank you, Pamela.
arathi said:
Ayala, pleasure meeting you and know about your life. Thanks for sharing them..loved your poems. love and gratitude is the way of life..Good luck and all the best ..poetry which found you be there with you forever..:)
Great interview Laurie:)
ayala said:
Thank you, Arathi. It is lovely to meet you here. I appreciate your good wishes. 🙂
Lydia said:
I so enjoyed this beautiful interview. Great questions, and deep replies. The nod to Brian was more than deserved, too.
ayala said:
Thank you, Lydia.
Carl Zarfjian said:
Laurie; Thank you for spotlighting my Ayala. It’s serves to give people a peek into the life of the incredible woman I married. The depth that you all see in my wife is impossible to measure through an interview. By reading her work as a poet you can a better feeling for who she is. But only by experiencing her love, passion, empathy, anger, sadness & joy 1st hand, can you understand how deep she truly is. For a simple man such as myself, it’s one crazy ride !
brian miller said:
awww….that is awesome…made me smile when i found your comment in the filter…enjoy that ride…smiles.
ayala said:
My dearest love,thank you. A simple man….not! I love you and I love that you see me and get me. ❤ Thank you for being a daily inspiration and the brilliant man that you are!
Laurie Kolp said:
Thanks for commenting… I’m so glad to see you here, Carl. What a fine example of true love the two of you share.
Björn Rudberg (brudberg) said:
Oh I visited a little late.. it’s so nice to learn more of you.. though to some extent it shines through so much in your poetry so I thought I already know you.. I wish you luck with your publications… 🙂
ayala said:
Thank you and I feel like I know you through your work as well. We bleed on the page, and share our souls.
Hope said:
thank you for sharing a bit more of yourself Ayala! a wonderful interview! 🙂
ayala said:
Thank you, Hope.
Susan said:
Wonderful, wonderful, wonderful … I am enriched by reading your poetry, Ayela. This interview with Laurie made me realize just how much of yourself comes through your poems. Tell me a little about your jewelry. What materials do you work with? Does making a new poem have any senses in common with making a new piece of jewelry?
Susan said:
Ayala. Sorry.
ayala said:
We make jewelry from silver, gold and platinum. 🙂 Poetry is different to me because it comes from the soul 🙂
Kathy said:
What a lovely family you have Ayala, and I’m glad I stopped by today to read Laurie’s interview with you. Thank you for stopping by from time to time and I look forward to reading more of your poems.
ayala said:
Thank you, Kathy. I appreciate it. Looking forward to more poetry.
Sumana Roy said:
this is one of the most wonderful interviews that i’ve read so far…so nice to get to know you more Ayala…thank you Laurie for this interesting conversation…
ayala said:
So kind of you to say…thank you, Sumana. I appreciate it.
freyathewriter said:
What a beautiful interview – thank you for sharing a slice of your life with us, Ayala.
ayala said:
Thank you, Freya 🙂
Laurie Kolp said:
Thank you so much, Ayala, for working with me. You should get all of the credit!
ayala said:
Thank you, Laurie! It was a pleasure!
rudrip said:
I loved learning more about you through this interview. What touched me is the fact that your father believed in your writing. What an important bond that you both shared, Ayala. xoxo
ayala said:
Thanks, Rudri. He is always in my thoughts. xoxo
moondustwriter said:
Out of pain and sorrow comes beauty – you are an example for many Ayala. Your work is touching and rich. Wishing you the best with your memoir
ayala said:
Thank you, Leslie. You are too kind.
kelly said:
You have such a big heart, Ayala, and it shines through in everything you do. I loved hearing more about your backstory, your family, your approach to life. Shine on, lovely lady.
ayala said:
Thank you, Kelly. I feel the same way about you and your writing. xoxo
hedgewitch said:
So glad I saw this on Facebook-a wonderful interview, and two beautiful poems shared, as well as a sense of life as it is lived with all its pain and fullness. Thank you for being in my life, Ayala, and I totally agree with what you said about Brian. he keeps us all inspired, and his support is unflagging.
ayala said:
Thank you, Joy. Your kindness and support always meant a lot to me. So happy you stopped here today.